Friday, March 5, 2010

Alice and Change

I remember being so excited last summer about the movie Alice in Wonderland coming out in March, and then being so sad when I realized that Elizabeth wouldn't be here to see it with me. Well, today was the day. BigJoel is snowmobiling in Alaska and due to scheduling conflicts, none of my friends were able to go with me; but HanK was sweet enough to let me tag along with she and her two friends. She even let me sit with her. As nice as that was, it just wasn't the same as seeing it with Elizabeth. I laughed out loud several times, but the three teenagers with me were either too cool or didn't get the humor. If Elizabeth had been here, I know she would have laughed even louder than me.

After the movie, I took the kids out to eat. Again, at least they let me sit at the table with them. At one point, HanK and Tiff went to the restroom leaving me alone with JamesBond (the third "friend"). Man, was that awkward! But as uncomfortable as it was for me, can you imagine what that poor kid was thinking? If Elizabeth had been here, I wouldn't have been stuck by myself trying to have a conversation with a 15 year old boy.

People keep asking me what I'm going to do without Elizabeth, and I usually just change the subject. I've tried to avoid thinking about a day like today. A day when something so small, like a movie premiere, would bring the realization that everything has changed. I have "prayed" Elizabeth back to Hometown more than once, but I know I cannot do that this time. Of the last two people that have held her job at the albergue, one came back with 5 kids and the other one found a husband and decided not to come back at all. She says it will only be a year, but I know that things are forever changed now. Maybe that's why this song, "Shine" by David Crowder, is stuck in my head.
After night, comes the light,
Dawn is here, dawn is here
Its a new day, its a new day
Everything will change
Things will never be the same.
We will never be the same.
We will never be the same.
We will never be the same.

Oh the glory of it all
Is You came here
For the rescue of us all
That we may live
For the glory of it all.
For the glory of it all.
That kind of puts things back into perspective. Change is a small price to pay for a rescued life lived for His glory. It can also be the greatest reward.

But I still wish Elizabeth could have been here for Alice in Wonderland...


4 comments:

Rhonda said...

Wow..this made me almost cry! I can't take her place....but I like movies and eating too......I'm just saying.....you could call me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Shepherd Family said...

Change really stinks sometimes. I completely understand and know those moments of severe loneliness when that person who want is just not there.

And I am sorry for bailing...I am sure I would not have been near as fun as Elizabeth anyway;)

Chin Up Miss Nyse :)

tracey fields said...

sweet post, denyse.

Cheryl Hyatt said...

Yes, Denyse, I miss her terribly, too! I have spent a good part of this week crying, wanting to rock her again! The comfort I receive when I see those beautiful little brown faces with her's can almost make up for my loneliness, but not quite! We can get through this together! We can pray through this together! We can support her through this together! And, by the way, I would have gone with you to see Alice! Love you so much!