After the movie, I took the kids out to eat. Again, at least they let me sit at the table with them. At one point, HanK and Tiff went to the restroom leaving me alone with JamesBond (the third "friend"). Man, was that awkward! But as uncomfortable as it was for me, can you imagine what that poor kid was thinking? If Elizabeth had been here, I wouldn't have been stuck by myself trying to have a conversation with a 15 year old boy.
People keep asking me what I'm going to do without Elizabeth, and I usually just change the subject. I've tried to avoid thinking about a day like today. A day when something so small, like a movie premiere, would bring the realization that everything has changed. I have "prayed" Elizabeth back to Hometown more than once, but I know I cannot do that this time. Of the last two people that have held her job at the albergue, one came back with 5 kids and the other one found a husband and decided not to come back at all. She says it will only be a year, but I know that things are forever changed now. Maybe that's why this song, "Shine" by David Crowder, is stuck in my head.
After night, comes the light,Dawn is here, dawn is hereIts a new day, its a new dayEverything will changeThings will never be the same.We will never be the same.We will never be the same.We will never be the same.Oh the glory of it allIs You came hereFor the rescue of us allThat we may liveFor the glory of it all.For the glory of it all.
That kind of puts things back into perspective. Change is a small price to pay for a rescued life lived for His glory. It can also be the greatest reward.
But I still wish Elizabeth could have been here for Alice in Wonderland...